[Originally posted on Substack February 28, 2025]

Sometimes you gotta flicker before you shine.

As I reflect back on the February teachings, my spirit feels lighter. Within each class, there was a hidden truth that my own soul needed to see — a piece of something lost that snuggled back into place. Through teaching the Loving Yourself Free series, I saw where I had yet to forgive myself of my life’s challenges and the stubborn resistance that often keeps me from trusting in what my Deeper Self already knows to be true. In defining the cause of self-blame in Part 3, I had an inner double-take as my own heart’s patterns stared back at me and winked. As I continue to see the link between toxic shame and narcissistic abuse, I more readily release that old sore that was never mine. 

After three years that have felt both harrowing and utterly enlightening, I feel a deep reclamation of my spirit is underway… so quietly my Deeper Self has been putting the pieces together without my conscious realization, soothing me with softly whispered assurances and sweetness… I’m trusting my sensual self again. I’m feeling ready to be “The Pussy Queen®” again. 

The timing feels ripe for a sensual reset… will you join me? 

Introducing the Sensual Reset Challenge

I felt inspiration coming in over the past few months about the next evolution of my pleasure offerings, then suddenly on Tuesday, I realized I was ready. I was ready to start pleasure coaching again. And in a greater sense, ready for changes in my love life as well.

What felt like a wild and electrifying thought in my mid-20s — adorning myself “The Pussy Queen” — created an internal push-pull that led me to want to abandon this branding at the peak of my healing chaos during the past 3 years. I can honestly say these have been some of the most transformative and painful years of my life. I pray it’s easier from here. I have a deep knowing that it will be.

Reclaiming my pussy in my early 20s was daring, terrifying, and in many ways isolating. In my quest to heal from depression, self-loathing, intimacy fears, and toxic shame, I released so much that had been with me for as long as my brain could form memories. 

I’m turning 30 soon and in many ways, I’m finally feeling like ME. I’ve had to release so much to heal and my Pussy Queen identity is the one I’m snatching back from the grips of a painful past and ancestral legacy. This is mine. You don’t have a grip on me anymore.

Throughout the past 10 years, I didn’t realize it, but I was searching for answers. Answers to the same question that led me to study Religion at Princeton University and dive deep into spirituality: why do people do what they do? Now, a decade out, I see the question within the question that my younger self never saw: why do the people I love treat me so poorly? I found my answers. (And overturned a few stones that I quickly returned. That’s enough digging for this lifetime 😅) I’ll save these details for the memoir I’ve been anticipating since I was 15 and, instead, leave you with this: 

There is a part of you that knows, that is laying a trail for you to uncover. It’s not realized by the mind. It’s sensed.

The purest of spiritual practices is a sensual practice.

Don’t believe me? Come and experience it for yourself in the 30-Day Sensual Reset Challenge: 

I don’t know exactly where this is all leading. I just have a feeling this next chapter is going to be really, really good. 

And SWEET BABY GODDESS, does it feel good to be The Pussy Queen again 💋